I’m actually nervous for my gig tonight at Kawa, a small espresso bar on 8th street. It feels scary/good to get into playing shows again, and trying to grow out of the comfort zone I seemed to have crawled back into. I haven’t played for five months. I technically took it as a musical break to write and find my roots again, but I only wrote one song and even then I just finished it today. I can barely play my acoustic quitar anymore, my hands cramp up not even five minutes after playing and my voice seems to have gotten weaker. It feels wrong that I have let myself and the one thing I hold onto dearly get so lame. There is hope though, if I keep pushing myself, and keep stepping out of my boundaries, I am sure that I can be back to where I was, with more confidence and more strength. Here’s hoping tonight is that first step towards the greatness I once felt.
